When you think of your mom and dad, have you ever said to yourself you would hate for people to think you were like them? Think of some of the not so attractive qualities of your parents. Were there any qualities that would bother you if you found out you were like them? Those moments of awareness show up in the most interesting ways.
Jimmy and I took our 21 month old granddaughter to the park to feed the baby geese, we called them (the goslings). We took pieces of bread and showed her how to throw them to the geese. Her pitching arm wasn’t so strong. When she threw the bread the geese were right at her feet to pick it up. If you have ever fed the geese you would know it made for an interesting time. We walked for quite a while as we emptied our loaves of bread.
I found myself wondering how far we would be able to walk because my husband Jimmy has been off work recovering from a hernia operation. He has been sitting around a lot lately which is expected and I wasn’t sure how he was feeling. I noticed I was getting tired of walking and a heavy feeling came over me. We decided to head to the car. (Here is a moment of reacting for me showing me there was conflict inside – I was not aware of what this was at the time).
We may have decided it was time to go but our granddaughter was getting more excited about the freedom of climbing in and out of this huge tree in the park. Jimmy sat on a park bench expecting we’d be a while longer. A while longer we were and then home we went.
The next morning in my meditation, I saw the vision of Jimmy sitting on the park bench. The huge heavy feeling came over my body again when I pictured that (it was the same reaction of the heavy tired feeling I had experienced in the park). Here’s what I discovered…!
I discovered underneath my reaction I could see what the real issue was! My dad came to mind and I could see how I was like him in that moment! There was a welcomed awareness in what I was about to see. I knew I would be experiencing a shift in my perception. You see I’ve been asking for resolution around the issues I have with my dad ever since a peer shared with me how I hated to think I could ever be like him. In hearing that, I decided to work on resolving what it was to be like my dad. The Universe helped me along in no time!
Still to this day, my dad yells at my mom for sitting on her ‘fat ass’ and doing nothing all day. I’ve cleared so much around yelling and I know that has changed. Now today I saw I have feelings in my self that have to do with sitting around all day doing nothing!
Through this experience with Jimmy, I knew I was feeling something similar and I started to forgive myself for what I was feeling inside myself. Not only was I clearing energetically what I was seeing in my husband, I was also feeling that he was seeing me like my dad sees my mom! That was hard to admit to myself. This was also part of the underlying issue.
I proceeded to clear through many issues within myself about my mom and dad. I was focusing on my reactions and what was causing me to react. As I cleared through those reactions, that huge heavy feeling cleared in no time! It was like a weight loss program…I would have sworn I lost ten pounds in those moments! That was what it felt like to me.
I soon came to appreciate this all occurred because of my precious husband showing up once again as a messenger for my learning and growing. I left my meditation knowing I had walked through another issue and felt more in a state of non-reaction or a state of peace.
Life brings us our messengers with messages for us. They will show up like moms and dads, friends, movie stars, car accidents, etc. If there is conflict, we will have reactions. What is causing us to react and what is the underlying issue in it all? When you find what is causing you to react (that the issue has to do with something within yourself) and clear through it, you will find peace within. Have you experienced something like that lately?
When we shift our perceptions, one person at a time, many people at a time, collectively we all make the world a brighter place to live in.
Sheila Unique…clearing paths for Self Empowerment!