I go about my day to a structure that is getting more and more unfamiliar to me. When I talk about normal now, it doesn’t exist like it did before. The normal I knew in the past isn’t the normal I know now. I find myself saying ‘I normally did this’ or ‘I normally did that’ but can’t find the normal now. It is more what was, than what is.
Yes, we still have normal like our seasons, Spring, Summer, Fall, and Winter. But that’s it, just the name. Everything else about it is different. For us in Regina, we normally have a winter but what was different this winter was we had more snow fall than we have had in decades, which isn’t normal compared to what was before.
So what I have been noticing is that as the blocks in my energy shift, my normal is changing. And as I am noticing the change, my mind is looking for that normal that was before. So when we talk about awareness, start to notice how when things change, how there is something that may not feel right but does it not feel right or is it just a new normal that hasn’t been noticed yet?
We are having another ‘Weight Loss’ Telecall coming up and I found myself aware I was looking for the ‘normal’ I was before I lost some weight and wondered what that was about. Through my observation, I recognized my mind wasn’t ok with the changes that had occurred. I changed my wardrobe to fit my new size, but what I recently noticed was my mind wasn’t ok with the change and was looking for the normal I was before, whatever that was.
When I think about it, it’s actually pretty funny. We want change in our lives and when we get it, we want things to be back to normal. We want to lose weight but we want to stay the same, normal. We want a bigger house but we want it like it was, normal.
When we clear blocks in our energy, we start to notice changes in every area of our lives but somehow we expect things to stay normal. Think of how many times something changed that we weren’t expecting, and thought there is a problem. When you look back, was there?
I noticed lately that I am looking for a normal, not that I want the normal I had, but I want the security I had in the knowing of what it was. Over and over we hear ‘the only thing constant is change’. So why are we so uncomfortable with it. Our mind operates behind us and only works with what it knows, the past. It is always searching for what was normal before and when it doesn’t find that normal, it creates a fear within to get us to go back to what was comfortable before, our ‘normal’.
Are we creatures of habit or are we what I would now call ‘mind driven’. Every moment, every hour, every day, is new to us, so why doesn’t it feel normal? Just observe, maybe it’s the mind just doing what it does so well, resist change.