What is it like to really be at peace with something? I actually experienced a moment or two of that peaceful feeling the other day.
I’m going through a phase in my life where I want to eat at bedtime. It started out to be the whole idea of bedtime eating – didn’t matter if it was ‘healthy or non healthy’ type foods. As I moved through my ‘bothers’ around the bedtime eating, I started to get hung up on eating the not so healthy type foods, like chips. Like any other bother, I would go inside myself and ‘clear’ whatever was bothering me, leaving me in a more neutral place around the not so healthy foods. This neutral place opens the door for more clarity. There would be nights where I would go to sleep without eating at bedtime…and then there would be nights where the chip bag comes out. I’m sure you could guess what happened to the chips!
After working a few weeks THROUGH that one, I experienced a change. After one of our telecalls, it was 8pm at night…I walked into the living room wanting to eat something. In my mind it was going to happen and all I had to do was decide what the food was going to be. As I stood in the living room, I asked my husband what was the big deal about bedtime eating? Why did people make such a big deal about eating at bedtime? His reply was eating at bedtime helped him sleep through the whole night. To him, he looked at bedtime eating as a help, not a problem.
So many times we’ve spoken of how the ‘fight’ is in not wanting to do something. I noticed how I was going into this ‘fighting mode’ inside myself about how I shouldn’t be eating at bedtime…blah blah blah. All of a sudden…and I do mean all of a sudden, the fight inside myself stopped! To my conscious mind, the fight was gone! Just before that moment of change, I had accepted that I like to eat at bedtime…accepted that eating then was an issue for me…accepted that it would probably affect my weight. A peaceful calm feeling came over me immediately. As I stood there feeling what was going on inside of me…I walked over to the couch and sat down totally at peace. I didn’t get up again until I went to bed.
I have felt many moments of being at peace when I have ‘cleared my energy’ around what I was feeling. This was one of the first times I could feel what it was like to MENTALLY let go of the ‘fight.’ I’ve cleared many things around this bedtime eating, all of which have helped me feel more at peace inside. This feeling I was experiencing actually felt like I had ‘walked through’ the struggle and fight which was coming from the mind.
In the end of my book, I share, “Once you accept you are not bothered or affected by the issue or situation, you have initiated a quick shift in your perception and thinking.” What a gift it is to experience my truth around what that feels like.
As you have walked through issues on your journey…your may have experienced your truth as being totally different from mine. Your truth will be your truth. The Divine works with each one of us so perfectly. Blessings to you always.