January 1st just past and I got to thinking of some ‘firsts’ for me this week…here I go.
We put a new sink in our kitchen. The sink looks great on our new counter. The FIRST time I went to do the dishes, I noticed how much more shallow the sink was compared to the sink we took out. Not only was it shallow…it was rounded at the bottom which means nothing in my sink lays flat now. Everything I put into the sink moves to the middle center. It was so different from before. My FIRST thought was who would make sinks like this? They obviously don’t do the dishes. Yes I was mad and very aware of my reaction. As I was doing the dishes I continued to think – the next thoughts had to do with taking out this new sink and putting in another new sink. That wasn’t possible at this time. I then started to think a powerless thought where I was kind of stuck with this sink now.
If I couldn’t change the sink…I worked with the next best thing that gives me peace inside…I could change how I felt about the sink. I did some energy work on how I was feeling about the sink.
Through that experience, I noticed my reactions…I noticed where I went with my thinking…I noticed a pattern in how I went to a powerless place inside myself. This was for me, for my learning and growing. I am more at peace inside myself today when it comes to my sink.
Another FIRST for me this week. The other day, I was walking at our sportsplex facility. This facility has an indoor walking track which I have been walking on for a number of days now. This one day there were some young men walking on the track. I could tell they weren’t there to exercise because they had their coats on. They were looking around the facility. When I saw them, my FIRST thought was ‘look at those guys…don’t they know there are people walking and running on the track?’ Along with my thoughts was the judgment of thinking they must be stupid or something?’ That may sound hard to hear but that was my first thought.
Along came a lady who was running in the lane those young men were walking in. As she ran around them, the lady so gently said, ‘this is a track for running’. The young men immediately realized where they were and got off the track.
Where was my learning and growing? When the lady gently said those words to the young men, I wanted to find that gentle loving place inside of myself. Where was that judgment coming from? What was causing me to think those young men were stupid. It didn’t take me long at all.
The Universe or my Divine so perfectly timed those people in my path for my own inner healing. I immediately wanted to heal the conflict inside of me. I asked to resolve this issue within me. I know there has been a shift inside. I was sure grateful for that gift of heading into the new year.
The word ‘stupid’ was one of the ‘sore spots’ for me growing up. I often heard how stupid people were. Those bothers around that word ‘stupid’ came along with me heading into adulthood. I can now choose to resolve the effects of that word. I’m working through situations in my life to help me be at peace around the word stupid. That word has presented itself many times along my journey…and I will know I am finally at peace with that word when I no longer have a charge or react to it. It’s getting easier every new day.